first time i heard it was on janice's cd but was just sorting out my youtube playlists and came across this video clip. it's deep as ay, made me realise that i've sorta drifted from what i used to believe in, hope you guys feel the same.
yeah, i reckon it was the week just passed which killed me. our show day holiday wasn't too bad, working at the eagle farm races i got to look after an empty taxi rank all day and got paid time and a half doing it. i was able to study all 67 skeletal muscles anterior and posterior we were supposed to learn for physiology which wasn't too bad. got to sign off early to head over to the vic which apart from nearly all getting our heads kicked in early on, twas pretty much as cruisy as the time at the races. thursday was recovery day, getting to catch up on all the sleep of the week till then; bloody still not used to the eight o'clocks ay. spent the night talking to justine cause she was in a procrastinating mood and fell asleep sometime around 3.
hmmm, the weekend was a pretty choice one, well from what i remember anyway. we had a good lunch over at the pinelands sushi place, the three of us boys ate 4 times more than the girls (it was great sushi ay) and phuccie couldn't man up to eatting his green tea icecream. we went window shopping at garbo until we decided to meet up with a few of d block at southbank to watch chuck and larry. awesome movie ay; well if your into gay homo jokes, u'll know what i mean when you see it. hahahahaha.
that's probably about all i really remember clearly of that saturday. we headed home to get dressed for a meet up with some of my security workmates out at the mustang. i pretty much don't remember much between a game of pingpong, a few drinks and finding myself in my lounge room in my underwear...hahahaha; well not really ay, i find it pretty scary ay...
woke up throwing up bucket fulls of black stuff and blood with my tonsil inflammed the size of one of those really huge marbels. hmmm, i'm really not keen on doing that again ay.
the doctor prescribed me some cough medicine, roids and new antibiotics (the last ones i had for the flu gave me the runs).... hahaha, he reckons my immune system was down from the flu and the drinking pretty much knocked me with some virus it wouldn't of cough if i was all strong and healthy. i feel happy taking roids, it makes me get an itch under my skin and gives me euphoric dreams; bloody awesome side effects; except for the itching.
can't wait to sleep, hope i don't see rabbits, butterflies and teddy bears like i did yesternight. good night people!
yeah man, i reckon i'm well enough to say i'm officially unsick; although my amoxillin doses are still continuing and i've been getting the runs a few hours later due to the side effects, i've been able to suppress my coughing to approximately once every 5 or so minutes. did my first gym session since last thursday and it wasn't too shabby; was able to finish a few sets of chest and triceps but it's been no where near the intensity i was hoping to achieve, none the less, it's still good to do some gym than none. i get to work this saturday which is a bummer but i guess it's not too bad, a few more hours of work i guess gives me a couple of bucks to add to savings. can't wait till my races shift for next wednesday. while you youngns are all out having fun at the ekka, i'll be at the races earning double time for standing around looking after drunk people. hahahaha
yeah....hahah martin just called and he wants to play some dota. i'll blog some more later tonight. ciao
yeah im bloody sick and tired of this ay. hate the flu. i reckon that last weight session i had 3 days ago completely wrecked any of my immune system i had left defending this bloody virus. it hasn't been all that bad though; hanging around at home, in bed or on the couch in front of the tv and mum believing that the only way i'm gonna get better is to feed me as much as i can, i reckon it's pretty cool to be sick once in a while (i get my abs exercises done as well with my constant contractions due to chest coughs.)
its not all glitz and glamour though. well i mean your mind starts to wonder and you sort of reflect and think about pretty much everything; well you can't really do too much else (i'm not one of those game playing sicks). some good sick bed ridden reflecting does the mind wonders but i think i'm at the stage where it's doing more harm than good (i've probably passed that staged 2 days ago). far, i hate it when i'm sick. weights, exercise or some good old afternoon staring at the grass in the paddock usually does me good when my minds been wondering too much or when life needs to be slowed down a little but ya know to stop the fat, it must be pretty bad. hahaha
actually, up until now in my post, i've pretty much felt alot better. blogging helped me rethink what i had to blog and i don't think it really is worth typing anymore, it would just be bitching about stuff now that i think about it. hahaha, i guess all i could say is life could be better, but it's good at the moment so i won't complain too much. take it easy people, thanks for hearing me out.
P.S. oi Thuy, i re-read that post, didn't mean it like u thought, hahaha, you think too much sorry if it sounded offensive. fat
Day:1
Second semester university has begun and it’s officially the first day of my new routine. I’m going to try so hard to follow it but I know I will probably stray away from it in a few weeks, lets just hope ay. My uni timetable is heaps better than last semesters. Although I’ve got a few more earlier starts, the majority of the day I’m either at home or am able to leave uni before 1 o’clock. Wednesdays going to be a hell of a day, cramming 3 pracs and a lecture within the 11 or so hours of contact between 9 and 8 at night. But all is good, sacrifice made for a spare day on the Thursday. So far, just concentrating on uni work, I’m pretty happy with how it’s going. Physiology and Anatomy are sick as, I really love this type of stuff, and pretty much both subjects correlate pretty well with each other. Chem and Cell and Molecular biology are shitty but I guess I’m coping alright. My plan to study and revise lecture notes has been going well, I’ve spent at least an hour or so revising every night which is an improvement since I scarcely did any in semester 1. Everything is slowly flowing into place. My holiday schedule and to do list is finally getting completed, only got the few little things like paying off my parking fines and doing my tax returns but less to worry about in the end I guess. The goal of getting abs is and losing weight is getting there as well, with meal plans and exercise regimes done the day before. I’ve followed most of it but I guess it’s all just a progressive thing ay.
It’s been good, I haven’t wasted too much time doing nothing; fate brought the internet down so I’ve had more time to do necessary doings like catching up on sleep and studying. It’s been a great few days; hopefully it will just get better.
Day: 6
6 days later and life has just got all but complicated. Work has been awesomely great and getting better although having only the Friday shift at the vale to look forward to during the week now. I can finally see the progression I’ve made since the first time I worked there. With a new supervisor taking over; an awesome fellow work mate, I’ve actually noticed how much I’ve learnt and absorbed from spending only a few months in the business. Maybe I’m not as useless as I thought I was. Work I reckon gets a good green tick. As far as family is going, I reckon I could put a good tick on that as well.
There aren’t too many things which need much of my thinking time these days. I mean, what else could worry a 19 year old these days other than work, study and family and friends? I’m not lazing around these days so it occupies most of my time around doing other stuff like studying. I’m working enough to help contribute to the house monies, study enough to keep a few lectures ahead, chill out with mates to catch up and take time off and have enough time for myself. I’m not quite sure why but with everything going slightly on track, I still seem confused about a lot of things.
A few months back I reckon the 2 ticks out of the 3 would be a godsend. Actually, right now I reckon I’ve got it all right for a few moments. But there just seems to be something really bugging me. I’ve only felt the tickle maybe since Thursday but I reckon it was a little bit before then. I think the tickle might be the little bit of light penetrating into my chest. The feeling of warmth and comfort, the feeling of revival, a hand to hold, a shoulder to lean on, that’s what I feel. I assure you, the feeling of happiness and warmth doesn’t have to come from the devils drink or natures weeds. Retracing back a few days it’s only a handful of things which probably got me feeling where I’m at now.
Actually I think it’s only one real thing. Maybe through so much that’s happened in my life up until now, there are only a few things which can make me feel genuinely happy.
Sometimes I reckon that instead of love pulling people together, it separates them with fate bringing them back. Spending a few hours with an old mate this week has taught me that friends come and go but mates I guess make you feel warm and fuzzy all the time; despite the time you saw them last. I guess it’s always better to talk to someone who actually listens and talks back although blogging does help to keep my mind off of things.
I think I’m just a lonely dude who needs to find people to talk to but I’ll make sure I’ll keep those who warm me real close. I won’t let you go again.
i heart you ----\
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after that little fishing trip, i rested hard till work began early on the wednesday for origin. the blues won *yay*, the maroons won the series *boo* but all in all, the night out at the vic wasn't too bad. thursday was folllowed by a good lazy day out at the muddy where myself and the super played pool and sudoku all night, it was a good bludgy night where good behavioured people sat and stared at pokies machines. friday was cruisy, like every other friday cause i was at the vale. i love the vale! had a cruisy ass 10 o'clock start saturday morning which dragged on untill 6 at the races. the corinda on the other hand was a different story with my super and i wrestling and getting a few guys arrested. bloody drunk people. just why i don't understand?
took the 15minute trip over to the alex from the corinda and evicted a few there. nothing really special ay, the week was pretty much one full of work so didn't really see much of the guys. my little sisters b'day was on the monday, got her a wii and a phone plan which i hope she likes. we chilled out on the tuesday with a few of the boys, about 20 of so ex-state highs which was a good turn up. played a little ball which was awesome and did the old school kfc dinner afterwards. brought back alot of the good times ay; nothing much has changed.
and yeah, it's been a pretty boring holidays so far actually. i've spent a few days just fixing things around the house and cleaning up but that's about it. sent a few of the otago boys e-mails so that was pretty choice, actually trying to keep in contact ay. anyways, i'll try and post later on in the week, i'm stuffed now, just came back from quangies playing a little bit of poker and wii. wii gets ya tired i tell ya. take care people.
yeah, that nrb stuffed me ay. i reckon the marker of the exam is going to shred up my paper after he looks at it. ohh well, it's holidays!
yeah, did the usual dota for a few hours after it cause was way too stuffed to do anything else, had a few late nights before hand to study for the exams. it was good to catch up with a few. we went fishing down over at charlies place for a bit (it was more like driving around than fishing). didn't catch a single thing so jumped over to west end for a bit which was stupid as. the temperature was probably around a low 4 or so and windy as ay. phuccie caught an eel and i caught a stupid catfish. duration stayed = about 8 minutes.
we headed down to thuys at the coast on the wednesday which was pretty fun. didn't do too much other than have a good feed (wasn't too good cause we were all still hungry as), and ross and i played on the computer while the others drank a few and played monopoly and pictionary.
we went home early on the thursday morning and i think i just slepted all day.
that thursday i think i just slept but can't be too sure. had work on the thursday which was heaps fun cause pete and i got to sit around playing sudoku, watching tv and shooting pool all night. it was mean as cause they kept us in till 2:30 as well, good pay for doing not much. hahaha
friday was a pretty fun day. i think we saw janice today, and went to play a bit of bowling with her and he little sis. ross and kerwin were there. (i hate it when i gotta try to remember stuff). had work and it was terrible. well it was good but we had terrible trouble. ripping people apart, grabbing shirts, taking hits; it wasn't too bad, just alot of dickhead drunk dudes who wouldn't leave. 16 evictions i think, 2 physical which isn't nearly that bad. had a good feed afterwards, bought myself a good tub of protein, synergy 5 it's called. gives u an 84% count of protein and probably about 3 percent carbs which is pretty sick for me. its cheap cause it's not a really well known brand but who gives a crap, it's good enough for me.
saturday i worked at sunbar and it was crappy. boring, crappy crowd, crappy venue, not really but it just wasn't my type of place ay. im not too much of a valley or city guy ay, just can't work those places ay.
we went fishing sunday night and brought back a feast. between phuccie, paullie and i we brought home eskys and buckets of 20 bream all up, measuring probably at around the half kilo to 700 grams each. it was sick as. kerwin and ricky didn't have too much luck although kerwin did bring up an undersized mangrove jack. ricky never got to reel in his line with a sinker and hook still attached.
it was stink but i guess a relief as well getting a phone call from the office saying my shift at the koala tavern was cancelled. stink because if they had called me 10 minutes earilier i wouldn't of been half way there and a relief because i didn't really want to work so early; 7 is heaps early hmmmmk. hahaha, so i've been freezing my arse off at home, trying to read through a few of my last exams notes while watching the craziest police chases on tv. an hour or so of doing nothing because there's not enough time to do anything and too long of a time to sit around waiting serves good relaxation time to just chill ay. ohh well, i've gotta go and get changed again, hope this weather stops heaps of people from going out, if it were to me i'ld rather be at home in my cosy warm bed sleeping. fat
i hate being lactose intolerant. growing up i always thought getting runs after eatting a pizza was due to it's preparation. a long period without milk, cheeses and yoghurt followed by a one good dose one morning left me clenching to keep it off of the floor. damn, an easy 30 or so grams of protein per couple of glasses doesn't help either. hahaha, stuff it, i'm gonna go and buy that soy milk from the super tomorrow, i hear it increases your oestrogen levels, gives you tities; hahaha we'll see how it goes. fat
pretty good effort ay, didn't even use a flash.farout bloody damn, chemistry is finally dead! well for now anyway, (can't wait till we get to do it again next semester). yeah, rocked up fashionably late to my exam; its funny how you never learn that closing your eyes for another 5 minutes of sleep just doesn't work ay. woke up an hour after i was supposed to, picked up peter and sped all the way to uni (well i would of been able to speed if it weren't for the stupid insane traffic). peter dropped the kids off at the pool when we arrived and i raced to find m block (after realising that it wasn't the place i thought it was originally).
it's real stink how they structured the exam ay. after the first few questions during perusal it felt choice as finding out that the questions were bloody basic as! confidence was high, i thought my non craming efforts the day before worked brilliantly untill i hit about the 20th question onwards which blasted all hope out of the window. far, they had real strange assed questions with answers where your tossing between two answers and you find that there's a choice where it says none of the above. e) none of the above was probably chosen the most for me, i really hope i didn't do too bad ay. overal the exam i guess wasn't too bad; just gotta get 20% out of the total 60 to pass, don't have to pass to actually pass the course.
we had a good feed at hanaichis afterwards with bondy. got a real large japanese chicken curry wif extra rice and extra chicken. it was a real good feed ay cause i hadn't eatten anything all day. wintergarden down at hanaichis made us forget about the outside weather. it was windy as a mother f*cker and was freeezing ay. i reckon the cold is nearly on the same bar as dunedin ay; maybe it's because i don't have 2 doonas, a heater and an electric blanket but for real it's heaps cold ay. after cutting through the wind and getting to my car on the opposite side of town, i was frustrated to have found yet another parking ticket flapping under my windscreen wiper, my 6th one altogether (i thought because i recently got one from the same place i wouldn't get another one for a while to come).
after dropping the two off home, kicked the ball and did some rugby drills wif ricky and phuc over at dutton park state school. afterwards we dropped over to ipm for a solid couple of hours of dota and starcraft (yeah man!) and went fishing till about 1 in the morning with phuccie and ross. i reckon we would of stayed longer but phuc and i were freezing our asses off. we left after ross had a good fight with an eel. out of nothing, we saw ross fighting to keep the fish on his line. after a good 10 minutes, he finally reeled the bitch up to find that it was a 1metre huge jawed eel, prolly about 10 centimetres in thickness. ross being the man he is, slugged the eel over his shoulder and the night ended with success and a to be feed. (not really, he lost it after the eel pretending to be dead, jumped, making phuccie and i run like a mother f*ck and ross not knowing what was going on let go of the eel and it slipped back into the water).
yeah, that's my story for tonight. it was a good day. fat
damn!
this place has changed ever since the last time i was on to update. blogger has introduced so many nifty things we can add to our blogs; the holidays will give me time to explore all of them. officially not really on holidays yet ay but finals give me a bit more time to chill out and stuff, reflect. hahaha
if it weren't for karan i probably wouldn't of got back on this thing to update (yeah sorry man, i know it was pretty long ago since when you told me) but got so much to talk about and so little people who have time to hear my random ramblings; haha i wouldn't blame them, these days we seem to be able to talk for ever.
it's been over 4 months ay and heaps has happened. it's been a great year so far i reckon. life could be a little less systematic though as it just seems as though if i'm not waiting for the week to end for work, i'm waiting for it to begin for uni.
uni, gym and work seem to work pretty good for me every week. monday starts with the 8 o'clock and the state library is prolly where i'll be after that. by about 3, i'll probably meet up with some of the uq guys in the city and go for a good feed and a few hours of dota. yeah, i still haven't been able to quit dota but it's the only thing other than gym which lets me relax, pretty lame ay. hahahaha.
tuesdays will pretty much be the only day i'm at home after uni cause nothing really happens. the guys rock up to my life sciences lecture in the arvo and we stuff around before going to the library to study (talk) and sit around southbank afterwards when it closes. but yeah, im usually able to catch up on some prac readings and tute preparations when i get back home.
wednesday - thurdays the week of work start and i'm out over at the muddy farmer for the 9 to whenever they decide to close. my super out there is a choice bloke, i love working there. the only place i've worked where i can actually sit on my arse and watch people (usually by then we've only 5 people in the whole place and no-one really cares anyway). love the wednesdays there cause there's karaoke on and time flies by real quick (karaoke finishes at 1 so you know u've only got an hour left). thursdays aren't too good cause music stops at 10:30, after this, ur just sitting around till people leave from the pokies.
friday is probably my favourite day of the week cause it's calamvale day. i don't know why i'm so passionate about working on the friday. its just heaps and heaps of fun ay; a venue i've gotten real close to due to great staff, workmates and just the atmosphere, there's always something thats going on and u just feel it. Saturdays are the same but i've been thrown out to heaps of different places. Looked after eskimo joes concert at the alex one night which was one cruisy ass night (got to stand at the backgate and look after gear and the crew from screaming crazy fans which did not happen).
Sunday we get to sleep till afternoon and exhausted from the whole week, i get to do absolutely nothing cause i reckon i deserve it (bloody lazy arse). stay at home usually and prepare for the whole week as it starts all over again.
gym has been real good ay but could be heaps better. ricky showed us a real mean suppliments shop over at carindale. yeah, i've gone pretty hard with it ay. taking l-carnitine (not fully yet though, im saving it for my cut and gotta research into it a bit more), creatine, glutamine, protein. the creatine i've got atm is sick as. no-explode it's called and it's insano crap ay. really does give you a kick. i've been loggin heaps of stuff, actually trying to do it properly. but yeah, have cut down on all the junk and have watched my diet; pretty much as little carbs as possible. but yeah, it's been sick learning about just how the body reacts to what you give it and do with it. fitness first stopped being my second home, i've been more acoustomed to working at home just because of the convenience; i miss having bondy there to push and spot me though.
but yeah, uni has been alright. haha, that's probably all i can say about it. kerwin and the guys were right when they explained qut for me. "it's just a place to go for lectures and pracs and then you piss off home". just wasn't like that down in otago ay boys, well...sorta, i guess it just didn't seem like it cause everything else was close to uni.
jackpot noodles is the brisbane sampan, the state library is the brisbane link and i swear the weather at the moment seems to be much like dunedin. it's a real noticable cold, probably not as cold as down south but it's pretty freezing.
i went for a pee and came back and i don't seem to remember anything about what i was supposed to blog. ohh well, maybe save it for next time ay. i'll be on more regularly (i say that everytime) now that the holidays are near. take care and wear a beanie. fat
past couple of weeks have been mean hard. uni has been pretty cool. completed first chemistry test for the year and it wasn't too bad. seemed pretty good for the amount of study i did. gotta do a bit more to get into the course i want to tho. don't have an 8 o'clock tomrorow so it's pretty mean hard. have heaps and heaps of time to study for my tuesday lsb exam and nrb exam on thursday.
had our last ray jays dinner saturday and it's gonna be hard to never come back to that place. so many memories ay. anyways, yeah, just felt like posting. i'll try and get some photos from ray jays posted asap.
take it easy people.
farout, yeah, it's been a long time since i posted something and i guess i've got a few minutes before work so why not ay. hahaha, uni's been pretty mean hard. it's good to get back into study mode again, and have a bit more routine in daily life. my time table isn't something too sweet but its good to get up at 8 in the morning and keep active till 6 in the arvo. hahaha, ohh well.
it feels good ay. it's great being at qut. it's a different great from being down at dunedin...it's just different. but its goood ay. great making new friends, great learning new things and just great being a uni student again.
i'm already using what i've learnt in the past few weeks of uni; especially environmental science, beginning to use less and less of my car to save our global warming issue. (not really...just sick of paying for fuel). but it's good ay, catching the bus is pretty fun. it's better now than in high school, just, have time to reflect on everything happening in the day. it's good alone time ay.
hahaha, anyways, i feel more satisfied now now that i posted something. my to-do list is still there in the back of my mind, i'm just trying to fix a few of the major ones up atm. a few tweaks here and there, add in a bit of time and hopefully i'll be able to cross a few off by the end of the year. take it easy people.
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hey guys, would love to wish you all a very very lucky, healthy, wealthy and enjoyable chinese new year. had a real awesome time tonight going over to cho tet (new year festival gathering in inala) and stuffing our faces with the popular nem nuong (baked meatballs), bo la lot (beef wrapped in leaf) and washing it all down with some nuoc mia (sugarcane drink). it was a pretty good feed ay. we pretty much just went to the festival to keep our stomaches full before popping over to the temple for some praying and firecracker and lion dancing watching. it feels good stepping into temple again after so long. was just good in general being able to pay respects to our elders and heavenly guardians. was a very great night indeed. got my fortune told on a piece of paper as well...really hope it does come true cause it doesn't sound too bad ay. we waited for the new year to arrive at midnight and headed over to to pick up mark and reagan to see how we would spent our first ours of chinese new year. we drove around for a while hoping to play some pool but the owners too had better things to do. we decided to hang out at kangaroo point in which we were mosotly occupied with our fortune tellings, quangs farting and a "who can run fastest" race. hahahaha, take it easy guys, have a real good one.
UNINSTALLED WARCRAFT 3 - FROZEN THRONE EXPANSION - DOTA 6.31A. NO MORE OF THAT ANYMORE. TIME TO GET REAL MATE.
yay, yet another lunar year is nearly about to commence. i'm excited ay. excited as, hopefully if my fortune teller is right, this year to come will be my year; well better than the year that is about to end anyways.
i can see good changes happening already. i love my job ever so much more, i love seeing my mates heaps regularly now, i'm loving and looking heaps forward towards my new year studies; i just can't wait for the year to actually start ay.
gyming has been heaps awesome lately and i can feel it's just going to get better. with kerwin trading places with bondy in melbourne, bondys homecoming has pushed me even more harder. we're already adding an extra 30 kilos to squats and completing full sets of 12. i was happy as, i can see results.
i'm officially a student of qut. bondy and justine took me around campus yesterday and showed me the places to be. i grabbed my id while i was there and alot brought back memories of studying down in otago. i really can't wait to study. cheers heaps to ming for getting me started, lending me his notes from last semester and saving his books for us to buy for the year to come. damn, if i don't get a good gpa, i don't know what else will.
i've really got to commit myself this year. i know it's pretty late for a new year speech or something similar but there's just an urge in me to do well this year. i reckon it's my year this year. i really really reckon.
