yes, i would like to apologise for my random babblings and the bad grammer associated with my last blog. i've only had time after work these past couple of days to blog. (security work night, sleep day). it's quarter to 5 on new years eve morning. the sky is nearly lit. i need to sleep.
farout, it’s been ten days since I last had internet. Lets just recap.
Nothing much has really happened, i’ve only remembered a few days:
Lams b’day down at the coast
Getting my car nearly fixed
Going fishing with Paul, Phuc and Ross down at Coolangatta
Joining fitness first.
Christmas shopping out at Chermside
Going dinner at Tiens and cruising
Dota
Lams’ b’day down at the coast.
It was our goal for the night we stayed down at the condor apartments to finish a 3 litre bottle of tequila. Probably among one of the most stupid things we’ve ever attempted. I fell asleep at around 7:30 after trying to keep up with Phuc, taking shots in 3’s. Woke up at around 11 when Ross came by and I stayed back with Kerwin in the apartment while the others went out clubbing. We cleaned all the little bits of peanuts and junk all over the floor and had a good catch up talk, most of it consisting of funny random shit that pop into our minds. Fell asleep after the guys turned up back home, woke up, swam, went home and slept some more.
Getting my car nearly fixed.
I’m finally getting my car fixed. It’s all nearly done ay, overall I reckon I’ll spend about 2 and a half, not happy but just finally got some stuff off my chest at least. It took about 6 – 8 hours for my mechanic to take the engine off. He said it’s probably one of the hardest cars he’s ever worked on. I guess it is pretty damn cramped in there. After getting the heads off, we saw the burnt up, lifted gaskets which was the result of my cylinder valve problems. After taking the heads to be compression tested, radiator to be cleaned out and ordering, purchasing and receiving of parts, it was time to put everything back together. One more day till it can be finally over and done with and I can drive my little maroon beast around once again.
Going fishing with Paul, Phuc and Ross down at Coolangatta
Yeah this was a pretty mean night. We decided we’d go fishing sometime around about 2 or 3 in the arvo and Paullie was keen on driving down. Ross picked me up after getting his new shiny red celica and we decided to drive round to Paullies place to show off Ross’ new ride. Just as we pulled up at Pauls’ driveway, out comes Paul who jumps into Tins brand new s15. Damn, that’s one hot car ay. The boys did what boys did and raced to see who had the quicker car. Knowing that s15’s run stock sr20det motors along with it being probably about 80 kilo’s lighter with Paul and Tin in it, you’d prolly already know who won. We went woolies shopping afterwards to grab some snacks for fishing. You can never have too many snacks for a fishing trip. Picked up Phuccie later on and we were good. I drove down in Paullies astina which is heaps of fun. Getting down to Tweeds we drove around for another hour or so trying to figure out our “secret spot”. We never found it and just decided to fish under some big ass bridge. Biggest catch was Phuccies massive puffer fish which inflated to be the size of a bloody basketball which also pissed on me. Other than that, little bream and what seemed to be, actually to be truthful I wasn’t quite sure, we just caught heaps of them and they looked edible so we took them. A few hours of that, and getting real restless and hungry, it was time to find a place to sit down and cook what we had. Paullie was there so the food he made from pretty much a few packets of noodles, some eggs, prawn bait and a bream was delicious. Phuccie and I slept all the way home while Paullie drove. I think Paullie fell asleep a few times as well.
Joining fitness first
I received a call 10 o’clock some morning telling me that Timmy referred me to fitness first down at Mt Gravatt. Thought I would see how it was so agreed to come and visit after about a half hours talking to one of the fitness first personal trainers. The place is great, heaps of equipment, heaps of facilities (they have a bloody aromatherapy room as well as free body gel when you have a shower) and it’s just a real nice, clean, modern place to work out. I joined and will get bigger (I’m obliged to pay 80 bucks a month whether or not I train). Talk to you more about my progress later.
Christmas shopping out at Chermside.
Yeah this night was pretty cool. I remember my stress levels rising heaps around this day though ay; taking in more problems than I could handle. I think I’ve got to really fix that up in my life ay. To me, it seems when something bad happens, I let all the other bad things build up before I start to sort them all out at once. Too impatient I must say. After having a good talk to Evo , Donald, Lam and Eddy I was back to normal and ready to let everything go for a few hours. We drove over to Chermside and met up with everyone else and had a ball ay. The atmosphere was great, just the rush everyone had to complete their Christmas shopping lists and just how there were so many people pushing and shoving their way through massive crowds. After finishing my shopping, (I thought I would just forget about my money problems for Christmas, knowing that Christmas only comes around once a year) and had a good catch up chat to those who weren’t shopping for their own gifts. I only really remember one thing after the long night. I’m broke but I have presents.
Going dinner at Tiens and cruising
I received an sms from Ross about two hours before he wanted to go eat for Christmas at Tiens. Him and Jimmy were over my place within probably a half an hour after that and we went to wash our cars. After a good 8 bucks at superwash, headed around and picked up Bond and Justine and we were off to Tiens. His restaurant is real nice ay. It’s real trendy stuff ay; got some inspiration for my own place. His menu isn’t too shabby either, offering kangaroo and crocodile though he didn’t recommend the croc. We got mates rates 40 percent off and sat round waiting for Tien to finish. We all then went for a “Ross” cruise cause he wanted to test out his car. It was pretty mean, we drove in a block of a yellow, blue, green and red car. It was pretty much our typical cruise, driving up to mount cootha and then standing around wondering where the hell to go next. Evan and Trung joined us later and we decided to go and grab some more food to eat. Went by Milton Maccas but it made our history books when we saw it the first time ever closed. Decided we would go and place some soccer so Justine dropped by work and took a lost property plastic ball for us, I dropped off Justine and we were kicking a red plastic ball around down under the bridge at kangaroo point. Tien brought out a slingshot from his car and his mate Tommy brought out sparklers. We ended up just shooting each other (Me shooting everyone else) with the slingshot and throwing lit sparklers at each other. Went over to sunnybank afterwards and bought 8 dollar 3 month old sandwiches at 711. Did pretty much the same thing as up at Mt Cootha and after probably 2 hours, we decided to go home. Was a good night, haven’t done anything like that in ages.
Dota
Kerwin plays Dota, Kerwin is nerd.
I hate leaving problems to sort themselves out.
Just give it time…. I don’t have any time.
yep, christmas is over and i've finally got my internet back. found out that the line my net was connected to got ripped apart by a rat. i've got my modem in the middle of the lounge room now, connected to another wall socket. hope you all had a very merry christmas. blogging will start as soon as i come back from donalds piss up tonight. ciao.
something funny i found cruising around the net.
The Five Stages Of Drunkenness And Sobering Up
Drinking
Stage 1 - Clever: This is when you suddenly become an expert on every subject in the known universe. You know you know everything and you want to pass on your knowledge to anyone who will listen. At this stage you are always right. And, of course, the person you are talking to is very wrong. This takes for an interesting argument when both parties are CLEVER.
Stage 2 - Attractive: This is when you realise that you are the most ATTRACTIVE person in the entire bar and that everyone fancies you. You can go up to a perfect stranger knowing that they fancy you and really want to talk to you. Bear in mind that you are still CLEVER, so you can talk to this person about any subject under the sun.
Stage 3 - Rich: This is when you suddenly become the RICHEST person in the room. You can buy drinks for the entire bar because you have a bottomless wallet. You can also make bets at this stage, because of course you are still CLEVER so, naturally, you will always win. Anyway, it doesn't matter how much you bet because you are RICH. You will also buy drinks for everyone that you fancy, in the knowledge that you are clearly the most ATTRACTIVE person present.
Stage 4 - Invincible: You are now ready to pick fights with anyone and everyone, especially those with whom you have been betting or arguing. This is because you are now INVINCIBLE. At this point you can also go up to the partners of the people who you fancy and challenge them to a battle of wits or strength. You have no fear of losing this battle, because as well as being INVINCIBLE you are CLEVER, you're RICH and you're more ATTRACTIVE than them anyway.
Stage 5 - Invisible: This is the final stage of drunkenness. At this point you can do anything, because you are now INVISIBLE. You can dance on a table to impress the people who you fancy because the rest of the people in the room cannot see you. You can also snog the face off them for the same reason. You are also INVISIBLE to the people who want to fight you. You can walk through the street singing at the top of your lungs because no one can see or hear you and because you're still CLEVER you know all the words.
Sobering Up
Stage 1 - Stupid: As you regain consciousness and begin to enjoy the headache, the churning stomach and the cold sweats you realise that you have lost not only several hours of your life but also the ability to concentrate on anything whatsoever. You are now STUPID and will remain so for a minimum of 12 hours.
Stage 2 - Ugly: Never entirely happy with the effects of the bathroom mirror first thing you are horrified to discover that you have now become even UGLIER than you previously thought possible. Not only have you bloodshot eyes and a glorious collection of spots but you are shaking so much that your grandfather probably looks healthier.Unfortunately you are still too STUPID to know better than to try and shave whilst shaking.
Stage 3 - Poor: Having crawled out of bed and got dressed you are about to shamble out the door when you discover that the money that was to last you the week is now missing from your wallet. Being STUPID, you have no idea what happened to it but the traces of curry on your clothes allow the possibility that you might have treated everyone to a takeaway at some point. Alternatively your pocket could have been picked or you might have given the taxi driver a fifty by mistake. Rationalising that you couldn't possibly have been that STUPID and that you would remember being robbed, you come to believe that you were the only one who bought any food or drinks all night and start to loathe all your friends.
Stage 4 - Fragile: As you are now STUPID, UGLY and POOR, your consequently FRAGILE self-esteem plummets. Your already FRAGILE physical condition ensures that you feel liable to shatter if anyone even speaks to you.
Stage 5 - Conspicuous: This is the final stage of sobering up. Unfortunately, everyone can spot this CONSPICUOUS condition and its cause from a great distance. Even worse, they know that they can complete your misery by making fun of you, and that you are too STUPID to retaliate, too FRAGILE to hit them,too POOR to bribe them and too UGLY to hide.
http://www.rupissed.com/5stages.html
yes, as i was saying before my random outburst, i guess yes, i was over-reacting just a little; one thing lead to another and feelings held in and let go at the wrong time. it isn't really as bad as i put it out to be. i guess there is always someone who will listen even if it has to be the man upstairs; he always listens. after my shift yesterday, i've realised that even drunk people will listen to you. maybe drunk people are just better listeners ay, i guess in some way, alcohol does curtain the way you originally feel so maybe they need someone to listen to as well.
hahaha maybe not ay. i'm not quite sure of where i was going with this post cause it's taken me about 3 days to get to here. i think one of my main thoughts i wanted to share at the start of my post was how it just seemed like alot of things fade in the end whether it be good or bad. i think the thing that made me think that was the song shimmer by fuel. listened to it on my shift out at the back gate the other night and just the way the two guitarist performed it made me really listen out to what they were saying ay.
"We're here and now, will we ever be again 'Cause I have found All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade Away again"
maybe a few days back when i was feeling a bit down i probably would of definately agreed with the lyrics, but now, i'm not quite sure. there we go, the emotion of the moment talking again, the technique of thinking of a problem 6 months down the track thing really does work ay. i reckon now that it's safe that my mind isn't caught up with too much, i can really question whether or not these words really mean anything. to an extent, i guess everything fades. life at the moment seems to be fading a little bit but i know for sure that when that good day comes, things will start to glow again. maybe i should just take the lyrics as describing the many ups and downs of life and to never lose hope because the thing that had faded was once before shimmering. no-one remembers the emploded star, only the brightness of it before. hahaha....maybe....
so a new week has begun ay. starting my first shift for this week in a few hours. it hardly feels as bad as people put it out to be ay, "yay *sarcasticly* another week of hard work before the next weekend". I guess worked really did seem like that back at the flower market days with 4:30 starts on a monday morning but i'm really starting to enjoy security ay. well they always do say that work you enjoy isn't really work. other than that, everything else doesn't seem too 100 percent ish.
when i look back and compare my life now with life a few years back, i reckon the old fat would come up to me and ask "what up wif you?". i try not to believe that older people are right when they say enjoy it while your young because when you get older all your going to do is work; become part of the ultimate rat race. i just can't help it ay. i mean, yeah of course everyone has to work hard to live a comfortable life but there just seems to be so much missing at the moment. there seems to be no-one to talk to, no-one who will listen, no-one who can give any advice which will make a difference.....SHIT I'VE GOTTA GET READY FOR WORK AY. HAHAHA. TBC
stop this train - john mayer
No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
I try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"
"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"
Once in awhile, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing
Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I will never stop this train
yep, i don't think i'll ever beat how lazy and bored i was today. i could of been out there earning some dosh but after a night like last night, moving wasn't really one of my main priorities ay.
i slept so much today ay, i'm really not sure how though ay. i'm pretty decent at about 7 hours every night but am still tired after about 16 today.
got some news on my car today. looks like i'm going to be ripping my stock kl03/klde engine out and swapping it with a klze. thought well, after the mechanic told me it's going to cost about the same to throw an engine in than fix the bloody valves, i might as well just get the engine ay. it packs an extra 70 or so more horsepower and is made in japan so i might as well anyways then ay.
hey have stopped worrying about the things i can't do anything about anymore. hahaha i bet it's time i stopped whinging and complaining about everything as well. the car can be fixed and money can be made. the pear shape of everything is slowly reshaping. was stoked as when ross and i got an extra shift this week, so i guess an extra hundred or so bucks a week takes a bit of stress away from nearly due monies as well as christmas time nearing.
we ordered pizza today (so much for the getting back into routine thing), and yeah, i think i'm going to stick to what donald told me the other night. having too much of something you really love causes you to slowly stop appreciating why it was so good in the first place. pizza was yuck even though i was hungry as. it just didn't taste the same; i already had pizza three times this week and had had enough to eat. why is it that sharing something or not having enough of something makes you enjoy and cherish it more? i remember fighting over the last piece of pizza over at rickys the other night with about 7 other guys. every bite was simple heaven.
i'm halfway through looking for alibrandi. i'm not sure if i mentioned that i was reading it again. if not, well...i am? yeah, it's still a good read the second time through. i know, i'm not much of a reader or a bright guy who understands and goes hard on english literature but 'looking for alibrandi' has things i can relate to ay. yes, it's through the eyes of an italian sicilian attractive girl and i'm a vietnamese fat guy but just the little things like problems with family, money and friends helps me reflect on how i can make all those problems a bit better in my life.
something real mean i got from reading the book, i think it was at the end of chapter 12, 'is good enough really good enough?' just posing a question, i'm still to think more about it.
anyways, i think i can cross out another goal today. i'm not quite sure if it's on the list but i lost track of the day today. i'm not usually ever like that, i'm always up to date with most stuff due to tv and always checking my phone for the date and stuff but today, i think it was because i slept too much and it stuffed up my head. i really thought it was thursday today ay. yeah yeah, nufin special but i was real relieved as when i found out that i didn't need to work tomorrow. just something i wanted to share.
'howdie dudie, how's your nudie?'
yep, drinking doesn't solve jack. hahaha, my head still hurts and i can feel my brain rip away from my skull. i think i need to keep more hydrated next time i drink, if i ever drink again. hope lam had a real mean b'day. we drank way too much random stuff ay, mixing spirits and beers; farout, jim beam and cola tastes yuck ay.
i'm hungover like hell and still worried about all that's happened and still to happen. my cars' dead, i'm working 2 days a week and in a couple of weeks, money is gonna be a very important topic around the house. why is it that money can take control of so many things. i really don't care too much, i mean, i think it's time i start looking for more work anyway but just so cut on how it makes people change.
it seems as though those who have it, can't live without it and those who don't have it will complain that they have none of it. ohhh, maybe the hangover is just making me grumpy and the junk i've been eatting the past couple of days is trying to fight it's way back into my regular routine again. i aint gonna let it happen ay. hahaha, no more break days, no more treats, getting down to business, and i know it's always harder to walk the walk than talk the talk but i guess we'll just see after some time ay.
more work and no play make ly go something something.
yeah, alot of "unexpected" stuff has happened, too much for me to be happy about but i guess i can't really do anything about it. i'm gonna hopefully drink my sorrows away tonight. maybe not, just have a few with the birthday boy lam. happy b'day mate, hope ya have a real mean one. yeah, i think i gotta have some time to think things over ay. it will be right. time will tell ay.
for some weird instant i somehow became obsessed with balloons. the kid inside me wants to hold onto the balloon but the adult i'm slowly turning into wants me to let it go. why i have this thought, i really don't know, let me just show you how i feel with a few pieces from deviantart.
balloons by ~rumpelwicht
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/36407088/?qo=112&q=balloons&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5
mary poppins by ~super-glue
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/37032204/?qo=26&q=balloons&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5
balloon6 by ~otrebla
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/44031567/
the last photo hasn't really got anything to do with what i said above i just think its real mean. like how there have been many times where i would of loved for the other person opposite me to turn into a balloon. gently floating in the air, swaying from side to side, carefree. i guess if you were a balloon you would have no choice which i guess could be another interpretation of balloon6. maybe i guess another way to see this photo would be that it'd suck if you were a balloon. you are meant to float and fly and be free from dirty hands or the object in which your tied too. i guess like another member at da described, even though it's still a balloon, it seems as though it's distracted. it's as if it wants to get away from the situation and be set free. haha, maybe it does have something to do with what i said before.
not really a reply but an update on my attempt at goal fifty fourth. although i'm slacking off and not training as much these days, the protein shakes have helped me lose another 2 more kilos. i don't look any different, nor do i feel any different, but i guess the scales do say so. lets see if i can get any close to crossing this goal out ay. i doubt it.
goal no. 11; make it to otago university
completed
was accepted and officially enrolled on the 20th of February 2006.
this goal will probably go down for me as a life changing one. not only did i get to cross out goal number 11, but during my time at otago uni, i also got to cross out a fair few more goals which i never thought i'ld ever have the chance to. being at otago university, away from my family and friends really taught me alot. i learnt how to become more responsible, more independent, appreciate many things from other cultures and most importantly, i learnt more about myself.
studying health sciences first year at otago and living at a small residential hall up on the hill really gave me the university student experience i was looking for. not only did university work make me kick my own ass to sit down and do hard study, it also made me realise that there is definately nothing you can get for free in this world. you gotta work hard, save money, compromise and sacrifice to get where you want.
but i guess, i, like many other people, went down to otago for more the experience than anything else. it was fun. this is what university life should be like. you are responsible for when you wake up, you are responsible for when and what you eat, you are responsible to decide whether or not your are going to catch the shuttle down or walk down for class (sometimes you can't really decide). but the point is, "you" decide what happens. your responsible and there is no-one else who can tell you what to do (unless your being too loud out on the street in which police deal with you).
the people down in dunedin are great. its such a laid back place, i'm really not quite sure why i haven't saved up and gone back down there. people are happy because they too are students and understand how you feel being away from family. but the most important thing i learnt from studying down at otago was how a few bunch of people can make any place just like home. i guess what really defines a home is who you have in there and the memories you share. every "house" has a roof, every "house" has a bathroom, a kitchen and a bedroom. but not every house can be a home. thank you you new zealand boys for making my stay just like home.
leaving otago university made me sad in many ways but i was also in joy knowing that i can take all i've learnt from there and apply it to my life, to assist in better living. it's been a great few months, i hope i've left as much back there as i've taken with me.
http://www.worldaidsday.org/
Take Action Today
Around forty million people are living with HIV throughout the world - and that number increases in every region every day. In the UK alone, more than 60,000 people are living with HIV and more than 7,000 more are diagnosed every year. Ignorance and prejudice are fuelling the spread of a preventable disease.
World AIDS Day, 1 December is an opportunity for people worldwide to unite in the fight against HIV and AIDS. This year, it's up to you, me and us to stop the spread of HIV and end prejudice.
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yes, i know, i'm a day late but didn't get to post till late this morning because of work. yeah, aids is a huge thing ay. truthfully, i've had no experience nor have i known anyone who has had aids but i've read about it and know that it sucks. from young kids who have to live with aids due to their circumstances to adults who have contracted it from unsafe sexual practices, we must come together and hold our hands out for those who need our help. we must educate the world on aids to prevent more cases and help assist for research to find a cure.
stand up because you can. we can make a difference.
i guess some wishes do come true. i remember posting a couple of days back saying that life is good although i need some randomness; something unexpected. a few things which i'ld consisder unexpected to me which has happened in the past few days:
1. getting caught speeding (not proud of).
2. receiving an interstate phonecall from a good mate (thanks justine, made my day).
3. some girl coming up to me and telling me i smell good.
4. seeing an old friend from sunnybank high (real random, she knew my name and i guessed hers and we talked for ages).
5. some person telling me that i'm a pacifist.
6. a designated driver telling me to carry her to her car...(which was strange).
just some random unexpected quotes:
Nothing is more memorable than a smell. One scent can be unexpected, momentary and fleeting, yet conjure up a childhood summer beside a lake in the mountains.
Diane Ackerman
Some people are still unaware that reality contains unparalleled beauties. The fantastic and unexpected, the ever-changing and renewing is nowhere so exemplified as in real life itself.
Berenice Abbott
One should expect that the expected can be prevented, but the unexpected should have been expected.
Norman Ralph Augustine
poor poor dog, great micheal sowa painting.
