nothing special

continuing my little rant after coming back from a bit of study, why is it that people (me) cannot commit to a simple few hours of study. i'm not quite sure what's wrong with me but the few hours since my last post, after finishing my physiology catch up, i decided to take a little break and open up my biochem prac book and finish the prac i just completed today which is due next monday. why is it that something (prac) which i would not even start to touch until the day before it's due can be a substitute for much needed study revision for my exams in the next few days. kind of reminds me of that simpsons episode where bart would rather do algebra than start writing about his history paper.





nonetheless, i guess doing my biochem and getting it out of the way gives me more opportunity to work on other study and not havomg to worry about it later on; i reckon i'll be stoked as hit sunday when i realise that i've already completed the prac. my exams start thursday and end on saturday morning, yay. i've still to touch maths, which i'll probably glance over in the next few minutes after this post and pharmacology is really starting to shit me off; not that it's boring or anything, there's just so much workload.



having the next two days off uni is pretty cool though, i reckon i'll have a read around on maths now and start revising for it tomrorow morning doing some questions. i'll probably hit up physiology and have a good read of pharmacology while i'm at it. by wednesday i'll hopefully would of done most of my maths and be able to revise it for my exam. thursday i'll finish off pharmacology and friday night i guess without work i'll be able to study physiology....hopefully it all works out.

waking up just an hour or so back, i've realized that it's that time of the year again where people hide away in their little caves and cram for those finals, wait a minute....

if my mind isn't play tricks on me, to my calculations, it's only probably about april? man, i'm absolutely going crazy with these exams ay, and i don't reckon i'm alone. this 2nd/ 3rrd year of uni definately linearly correlates with stress and difficultly levels ay. i just can't wait till this weeks over so i can go and fish my brains out. i've taken work for both jobs off this week (i'm not quite sure how i'm gonna survive in a few weeks though because of the drop income) but i'm not gonna waste another year with a possiblity of failure in some homogay subject i could of passed if it weren't for work. no chances taken this year ay.

on another thought though, i think the pass happenings at work probably gives me much reason to take a break anyway. none the less, it's in the past, and i guess you ought to expect something of such a degree in this type of industry anyway, don't ya? but it does make you think when high testosterone ridden males have a need to express their egotistical selves to people they think that care in the form of violence which, other than abling to show it in some kind of heroic way, needs a dozen or so more testosterone filled males to "assist" in a cowardly attack on other males of similar feats. You see, the positive feedback loop begins and this my friend, will be hard to stop.

you can get used to having something
you can get used to having that something lost

can you get used to having that lost something back?


strange yeah?

now that that thing is over (tthat shocking attempt of a break we had), it's all back to the worrying and dreadful thought of getting back into it all. the holidays served nothing more than 3 at the most days of freedom, where we ate, pooled and dotaaaadded. i suprised my sister when she found out that even on the holidays i still had work 4 days a week but knowing me, i bet she thought it a gift (i would of probably sat on my arse doing nothing anyway).

these days without uni did serve some purpose, a purpose i only attempted to achieve yeseterday night at about 12 where i gathered all my notes and assignments and crammmmed. the end result led to falling asleep in front of the telly watching family guy. i'm gonna definately stop it ay. not just the fact that cramming when you've got absolutely all the time in the world to work on it but leaving the telly on.

earth hour 2008 which started at 8 o'clock saturday night made me way more appreciative on what we've got for granted. wandering the halls of my house holding a wax dripping candle showed just how.....

i'm always there for you, no matter what; sometimes you've got to do what's right, not what's best for you. stay true.

i'm sad today and im not quite sure why. i'm in one of these moods where the world seems to spin right around my stationary self. it feels as though so much is happening around me that it's gonna take me ages to catch up to it. holidays have pretty much pasted now although they're soo short it doesn't really seem like we're in any kind of break anyway. thursdays today, which leaves me absolutely no other day to do anything i had planned at the start of the break, then again, i've been working pretty hard these past couple of day s.

restaurant has been fairly busy, and i guess i've done my satisfactory hours in fishing. i'm still to put a line in the water tho as fishing these holidays have consisted only by cast net. the place myself and paullie found has been nicknamed the mullet hole as that's pretty much alll you catch there. it's a very peacefull place, taking phuccie up there one arvo, we all sat on the abandoned jetty, the one where you reach after climbing around a fence and walking down an unstable as ramp.

sitting there, soaking wet, waiting for the fish to come back, gave me a sense of peacefulness, if that can be used to describe it. the suns just setting, where the sky gets all cool coloured, and you get that friday arvo feeling after schools fininshed when your young. mullet splashes can be seen and heard all over the place, and looking forward towards the mangroves on the other side, bare weathered jetty posts can be seen, standing as a reminder of it's past.

very peaceful i must say but other than the minute sense of happiness this gave me, the balance of life seems to be tilting slightly to the left for me, towards baaad. it's not all that bad i guess, like everyone, there are good times in your life and bad times in your life, tho it just seems at the moment, all my bad times i've had up until now, well not neccesarily bad, but more, hard times, have all been done for little or no gain at all.

maybe i'm just a little too impatient, im always for the optimist, and really, i'm still true to the saying, if you work hard, there will always be something in return but i just feel like it's just soo much more easier to give up. i guess sometimes you've just gotta keep pulling on that rope until it's finally yours.

i hope after this is all over, i will become a better person.



listening to this makes me feel like a bettter person....it's just amazing.

work's pushed back another half an hour and with a start time of 10 tonight, i sit here watching shrek in the lounge room while cola lies on her back alseep in the corner where she's usually at. although theres a few extra bucks lost, the extra hours before work serves awesomely, giving me time to just relax, chill out, and to be worry free for a couple.

with uni and work, as well as the restaurant opening back up, it's hard to find time to relax these days. thursdays seem to go pretty well with only a tute early morning but the weekends are really the only time where i can feel comfortable not worrying about uni.

tbc

autumn has arrived and the mood in the air dramatically changes from a few days back. it's more a chilled, laxed out feeeling i get now, not just literally, the mind feels a bit more eased back as well.

the significant difference in weather, especially when it's cooler, brings back memories, close and distant for me. i've made many memories which surround these cooler months so whenever the air changes, my life seems to change a little as well.

i feel that i reflect alot when it's cold, i guess your more indoors around this time, all cosied up in a blanket on that couch in front of ya tv. i love being outside during winter tho, the crisp freshness in the air and the smell of the soils and trees leave you refreshed asss.

autumn, i love autumn.


....as my little sister leaves on her journey of many lessons, i sit and hope her the best and that she will be able to take home many wonderful experiences and memories and life lessons this world has got to offer.

me smiling

it was sickness today. waking up to brissies breezy cool mornings always gives me something extra for the day. it was pretty cool, something not seen here in a while but i think it's about time we get a bit less of the sun now that summers just about to be over.

we hit up the moma (museum of modern art for you non-trendy people) today for the andy warhol exhibit which was pretty awesome. seemed like everyone enjoyed it, and with everyone contributing a bit to each warhol display made it just that bit better. like janice said, we prolly would of spent a bit more time appreciating half the stuff if a million school kids weren't there running around but i guess there's always the weekend where we can visit again; it's good to see that the young are getting culturally educated earlier tho.

my favourite would of been the portrait of a man in a ball point pen. all it was was pretty much how you would scribble during that afternoon maths class in highschool, except it was just cool, seeing soo much detail put into the drawing. every individual hair on the mans head was captured by warhol and it's just amazing how such a little sketch which would of taken him a few minutes would of taken me days if even i could draw that well; it was errorless as well mind you..no white-out, i checkedd....

the soup cans were pretty sick, actually seeing that they were real copies from warhol made it a bit more special. the three of us, janice, bondy and myself fought over finding differences between paintings (warhol loved to replicate an image many times, i guess to emphasize his meanings, and change colour arrangments of the replicates). we agreed that the majority of differences were from slight camera movements tho the same couldn't be said when museum downlights changed portrait lighting at different angels.

it was a pretty sick day, bye byes were said when janice left for kelvin grove, we scored free kebabs from timmy who hopefully doesn't get fired now and my physiology prac which lasted for an hour was choice. i'm gonna head over to trungs for a bit of ping pong now. sickness...take care people.

whoa, where do i really start. it's been a very...i'm not quite sure if it's eventful but occupied sounds pretty good so i'll used that. it's been a very occupied past couple of weeks. if i'm not working over at the restaurant, or providing my security services, i'm near the water with my fishing rod and the few mates who share the same passion as me.

catching absolutely nothing to be proud of all these weeks of fishing gives me every reason to dissagree with the phrase "there are plenty of fish in the sea" which is pretty sad knowing i've used the phrase many times to comfort heartbroken mates, hopefully they won't ever read this blog.

christmas this year was another one to remember having thought of having a quiet one with a few turning out to be having a loud and roudy one with alot; singstaring, bbqing mingling and lam and ray beating each other up. it was a good one, the meat was awesome which couldn't of been awesome without the awesome marinators myself and martin and the cooks phuccie, bindi, martin and myself.

TBC.

i completely forgot bout this list ay, lets see what i've actually done ay...

hitting up the great barrier reef
going camping somewhere
starting up and working hard on distributing company
starting to study for pharmacy subjects next year
working hard for a good month
find another job or get extra hours
clean the house
sort out all the useless stuff in the house
sort out the backyard sheds
buy new mower and mow the grass
fix up the boats and sell 2
get boat license
start up ebay shop
go chermside shopping
go hot air ballooning
buy a car
renovate the house
fix up light in the hall way and bindis light downstairs
replace all light bulbs with energy efficient ones
change all tap washers, taps and shower heads to efficient ones
go on the 12 week bondy challenge
get the car serviced
start up the garden
fix up that business plan on twentyfour
begin study on sleep
make a youtube video
make a bb.com video
put up kitchen benches for mum
fix the door knobs and handles for the house
fix up all the fly screens
have at least one bbq

man that's one real shitty effort...hahaha 2 and a bit more months to finish everything

the only thing you can do is laugh..haha

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without rice, even the most cleverest wife cannot cook...

just over 2 weeks of freedom and at the moment, i reckon if i had to go back to uni i would be happy. it's been awesome as ay. ever since exams finished and everyones slowly started to settle down a bit; ya know from that feeling after hard cramming where you always feel like you've got to do something.

i can't remember when i stopped blogging but we've done a fair few things since then. got my exam marks back and it looks like i won't be repeating anything next year which i'm pretty stoked about, i had the deep stomach feel while waiting for peter to read out my marks to me over the phone (we were fishing at the time). but yeah, ya feel a bit more free after knowing ya marks ay, it feels like a new start now, the one where you promise yourself that you'll do everything better from this time on; it never really does happen tho.

hmmm, the past 2 weeks have consisted of fishing, watching movies and going to work. justines just bout to get back from dubai, , peter and ming have headed back home and nicks gooooone the usa; man everyones leaving me ay. i found myself a kitchen hand job over at tiens 6 degrees so i'm working over there on the mondays and tuesdays and hit up the clubs on the friday and saturday. i'm sort of getting over the whole security thing tho, just having to deal with idiots. we'll just see how it goes till the start of uni ay, might even find myself a static job in some gatehouse somewhere...fun fun fun.

man, tiens mum and aunt have taught me so much. i feel like a dumbass having to ask them questions with every action i do but i'll be a sick chef hopefully sometime soon. i make the best crocodile and hallumui salad i reckon cause it's specially cooked by the ly. hahaha

but yeah the experience is heaps good, i reckon it's about time for me to learn how to cook as well.

martins been over here a fair bit as well and the fellas have popped by here and there which keeps us all occupied with stuff to do/ or not to do. we mowed the lawn the other day when martin was over; i hadn't mowed it since the start of last year, man, it was more like cutting down treees ay. my lawn mower i bought from kmart for 200 bucks doesn't do the job quick but i guess does get the job done; i swear i'm gonna run this little bugger on high octane fuel, professional racing oil and change the mower blades to chemically sharpened carbon fibre extra light blades, it will become a beast. martin pretty much ended up wipper snipping the whole lot and i mowed over it. we have a sick lawn now.

i've been fishing with the fellas every other day pretty much. paullie, phuccie and i have pretty much travelled the whole of brissie in search for fish. we still haven't found any decent enough to be proud of but its been heaps of fun with heaps of good old memories which we will definately find hard to forget anytime soon.

up until now that's probably all i can really remember but it has been a pretty cool few weeks. ill post up some photos to see if i can remember much else that's happened in the past few weeks. till the next time i post; hopefully tomorrow, take it easy people!

yeaaaaah, 3:24, 2 days from start of exams and i'm pretty stuffeed ay. let me see, ever since my last post, i've upd the dosage of caffeine from that one can or redbull to 2 no dozes and a jug of coffeeeee. i give myself regular lie down sessions and drink plenty of water...i guess if you gotta cram, ya gotta do it sensibly ay (could of been more sensible during the semester by going to lectures and not sleeping in). i guesss what's done is dooone.

i can't fail any of these this term ay....figured out i need at least two 6s and two 5s to get into what i want; my chances are real slim but i still gooot hope. there are 4 exams but the 3 on my mind atm are the consecutive ones which start on the tuesday, anatomy is pretty much sussed out, i've spent alot of my time revising it so i'm pretty confident ay, chemistry is going sorta alright. i finished catching up all my lectures just a few hours back and have beeen relaxing a bit, there doesn't seem to be anything tooo crazy, it's all just concepts but there are a few things which will be stink trying to remember and i reckon i'm gonna get a boo boo trying to study for cellular molecular.

maaaaan, my second no doz isn't going down tooo good for some reason. it's making ma gut feel real....icky ay. hahahaha, we'll just seee in a few minutes whether i get a heart attack or not. i hope not ay. but yeah, i reckon i'm pretty pro at cramming, i promise myself every exam period that i will never cram ever again. i bet everyone does that ay, i just want the holidays to be here finally. after next thursday it's gooone be sweeet, got a few days to study for physiology then even more sleeeep depreviation; i'm hoping to not sleep for another week after that so i can go fishing and do whatever i feeeel like...like cleaning up the shed out the back. yeaaaah, that will turn me on.

only cooool people drink water, do you want to be a loser? rehydrate yourself...stay cooooool

i'm on my first red bull tonight (cut off the v, they reckon it gives ya cancer) and on my 10 minute, (15 now) break from study. i had a goood sleep last night ay, got home earlier than usual cause i got changed to the vale for the saturday shift. it was the a pretty cool shift, having absolutely nothing to do other than talk shit with the super, ross and jodie. i've never seen the nightclub so empty ever!

i'm up to my 2nd lecture now and hoping to finish it all pretty well before 3 tonight, feel like sleeping a bit ay. we had a real choice time at ross's b'day bbq yesterday. had a real mean one over at the park near his place. martin, jimmy, tien ma sis and bondy all chipped in to get him mean gifts; a tacho and shift light for his car, a trd sticker and a car wash kit which i hope he loves.

we got to the park just before ross unloaded his stuff so we helped him set everything up. his sisters rolled the bbq down from the house and people started to arrive. farout everyone came ay! it was a choice as day, i reckon ross had heeaps of fun! happy birthday again brother. after a bit of rugby and having hien slip on concrete giving him a good one on his elbows, we decided to take a break from the insanity of brisies spring weather (it would of been a good 30 i reckon!).

jimmy made an appearance with his boosted civic and ross shat himself after going for a spin with him. after the sun started to ease off, a bit of basketball was played, we cleaned up, a few photos were taken and we all headed home to grab a shower and head for a few games of dota.

it was mean fun, just check out the photos!

*stink...won't let me upload photos!*

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as you can see im a boring person and can't find anything interesting to do so i've composed this list i wish to accomplish over the holidays.

hitting up the great barrier reef
going camping somewhere
starting up and working hard on distributing company
starting to study for pharmacy subjects next year
working hard for a good month
find another job or get extra hours
clean the house
sort out all the useless stuff in the house
sort out the backyard sheds
buy new mower and mow the grass
fix up the boats and sell 2
get boat license
start up ebay shop
go chermside shopping
go hot air ballooning
buy a car
renovate the house
fix up light in the hall way and bindis light downstairs
replace all light bulbs with energy efficient ones
change all tap washers, taps and shower heads to efficient ones
go on the 12 week bondy challenge
get the car serviced
start up the garden
fix up that business plan on twentyfour
begin study on sleep
make a youtube video
make a bb.com video
put up kitchen benches for mum
fix the door knobs and handles for the house
fix up all the fly screens
have at least one bbq

yeah something on the lines of that ay....

HAHAHAHA! i've always had something where i can flick to or turn on which makes my shitty days feel better. it's usually past photos where fun memories jump back or my favourites playlist on youtube where inspirational or funny videos make me laugh all the way back to happy again. i was cruising around youtube when i found this, a lift plus ad and well, you'll know how happy it will make you feel once you click the video below. hahaha the only kind of laugh which makes you feel good is the one which stops you from breathing.

man, gotta stay motivated! exams are coming and i'm only procrastinating more by posting. gotta do well in this next anatomy practical exam. gotta do well in this next anatomy practical exam!

a few things which have made my days last a bit longer...

playing capture the flag with the boys for 4 hours
parking down the road from a mates house to have an hour long chat
seeing a nick
seeing justine
meeting up with martin to see tien
big angry bosses appreciating my work
a stranger in the city toilets wishing me a "happy monday day"
getting promoted
sitting with the guys afterwork until the sun rises
seeing ming and kerwin
listening to john mayer
blogging more

the feeling of change seems to be lurking just around the corner tonight. i can feel it creeping up on me but although as much as i want to, i just can't seem to embrace it with open arms. that icky sticky feeling is still swirling around in my stomach, (ya know, like that antacid ad on tele). it was a bad day today, well, just not as productive as any other day in the previous week which makes me a bit sad; knowing that every minute means something these days.

i did manage to wake up before my alarm at 7:30 today which was a real good feeling and got some pretty important things done like fixing the dripping bath tap and putting away the tools to an obvious enough place for me to find next time i need to do anyy fixerupering.

today i experienced first hand that persistance again always prevails, fixing the tap today took a mere 5 minutes compared to the first time i tried it for a good few hours and got shocking results. the stupid bell screw last time didn't budge but after a week and coming back to it, sitting there thinking, selecting the right tool and with the correct technique of the the grip, the thing came off like a charm. i reckon me looking at the tap did the job, it got scared ya see.

just finished dinner now and continuing to finish off this post. i'm not quite sure what else there is on my mind but i still feel stink for breaking another promise today tho. hate it when i break promises especially the ones i promise justine. man i feel stink ay but when holidays come round i promise i'll go to soo many meetings u'll get sick of seeing me. hahaha. i gotta go and keep my other promise, the one to study for this last and final quiz for physiology...last prac tomorrow. yeeeeaahhh!

farout, looking over the goals list i don't think i've crossed any out since my first post. i promised myself to cross off 10 goals this year, hopefully i'll be able to in the next few months.

man dis is hard ay....



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hard man....i'm aching at the moment. my arse is prolly limiting me from walking properly at the moment. today, i've never felt so much pain in a workout ever. i reckon i've been through a good cycle of emotions and feelings today ay. i woke up tired and sleepy, getting to uni got me into a soulful mood listening to some buble and babyface but the ride there was frustrating as hell, bloody morning traffic, i'm suprised to hear morning radio blasting out of commuters radios tho, i don't think i'ld be able to stand hearing over-caffeinated idiots blabbing on about politics and insanely interesting topics like the most outrageous way to mistakenly pronouce a word...yeah

hahaha but getting to uni i felt a slight bit of worry after discovering and coming to reality the load of work i need to get through before the end of year exams. i felt a sense of completion and ending after re-checking over all my chemistry pracs and cellular molecular biology pracs and a sense of achievement and joyfulness followed while helping out the other boys with theirs.

hungry was probably what i felt next but i'm usually always hungry, i just never really notice it unless i'm starving. satisfaction was felt when that first bite of chicken burger entered my stomach and regret was felt when the last chip was swallowed when my conscious reminded me to never eat that much again.

hahaha, gym left me the most pain i've ever endured in any workout, as said earlier, and i've never felt soo sick ever while sober. looking into the mirror when i turned yellow was pretty cool for a bit until i wanted to throw up the mushed potato and bread in my gut. man, the gatorade bondy gave me made me feel relieved as when the cold sugary substance cooled me down and replenished my glycogen stores. made me feel a million times better, ur a mad dude bondy. '

but yeah, this can go on for years i reckon, the main thing is now i guess and i feel...enlightened...i'm not sure if that's the word for it but i'm feeling blessed ay. that feeling is still lasting ay. i wonder what it is but yeah man, i just had to tell someone. i've already told nick but i want people to read this and feel it ay. it's like...the feeling of walking through a forest lined with beautiful green trees and plants, birds whistling, animals doing their business on a happy sunfilled afternoon but your walking on a path of nails and shards of glass and fireants. by the time you reach the end of the path your dissapointed that such a beautiful thing can have faults but you notice that you have no cuts nor injuries to your feet. it's a bit weird and i thought of it on the spot so it drags but i hope u feel me. hahahahaa.

like...sometimes bad things just aren't always that bad ay. they are there to remind you that nothings always perfect but if you just live it out, its

yeah man, i''ve got abosolutely nothing to do but i feel soo occupied (yeah...that's why i'm blooogging) but yeah so far i've completed everything that needed to be done today. i've washed the car (did it 4:30 this morning cause it's probably about the only time i can do it), slept a good few, did some cardio, fixed my bike, vacuumed the car, cleaned my room, checked my e-mail and facebooked. there's a good hour or so before i have to get ready for work but for some reason todays not like other days where i complain of how lifes too boring or how lifes not boring enough. it's just, good today, i feel as though i'm actually living it now, maybe this is it?



john mayers playing in the background and i'm about to turn off the tube, the lights and set the mood with a little bit of ambient light. there's something in the air today and i think it's something good. everything seems to be going on around me but i feel so comfortable being able to sit here and really chill. there's nothing to it ay. my sisters listening to the tv in her dreams in the lounge room and mums singing in the shower while dinner sits in the kitchen table. there's something going on tonight. it's not a full moon nor is it hot and humid like other days, the winds blowing and i reckon it won't rain like mum said it would tomorrow. why is it that such little detailed things tonight seem to give me so much more joy tonight than it would any other night. why am i noticing.



hahaha, it's strange ay but nothing at the moment seems perfect nor do they seem disastrous but it's just all good ay. ya know i really hope this feeling last for a little while longer ay. i reckon happenings within the past few weeks have taught me some very important life long lessons and shit's finally hit the fan. lesson no.1: don't plan what's going to happen next, nor dwell on what's already happened, just be there when it happens.

hahaha, far, it's heaps stink, i wrote a huge post but lost it when i tried adding pictures and it froze the computer. ohh well, didn't really write about much i don't really remember what it was about anyway.

studying has been sick as lately ay. physiology and anatomy just clicks with me ay, i've devised a new way of learning as well which is alot better than how i used to study. i don't waste time writing out lectures anymore ay. i'm suprised that i'm actually not behind on any lectures knowing that i've stayed home for a few. reading, trying to understand and then making it fun really does work for me ay. hahaha, yeah, i know what you thinking but i don't care, it's just fun ay, i find it heaps interesting ay. sometimes in my spare time i sit there and see how fast i can name all the bones and muscles in the body and then try and beat the time next time round. i reckon that main thing to remember stuff is consolidation, something not many of us do ay. i've probably gone over my lecture notes twice a week now that i don't waste time on writing them out.

hahaha, yeah, still have to read up a bit more tho, i've still got to catch up on cellular molecular biology which isn't on my enjoyable things to do list but i guess ya just gotta do it ay.

work has been as fun as watching eddy drunk. hahaha, it's been awesome ay, i love it at the 'vale and since last week when i was doing the nightclub at the alex, i love it there as well ay. hahaha.

man i'm a facebook addict these days ay, i'm gonna go and jump on it before my timer runs out. between my breaks i set a 10 minute timer, when it runs out i go back to study. far, it's already run out but someone left me a comment. hahahaha! ciao, post next time. fat

whooooohooo! just feeling good today, post when i get back from work!

first time i heard it was on janice's cd but was just sorting out my youtube playlists and came across this video clip. it's deep as ay, made me realise that i've sorta drifted from what i used to believe in, hope you guys feel the same.

yeah, i reckon it was the week just passed which killed me. our show day holiday wasn't too bad, working at the eagle farm races i got to look after an empty taxi rank all day and got paid time and a half doing it. i was able to study all 67 skeletal muscles anterior and posterior we were supposed to learn for physiology which wasn't too bad. got to sign off early to head over to the vic which apart from nearly all getting our heads kicked in early on, twas pretty much as cruisy as the time at the races. thursday was recovery day, getting to catch up on all the sleep of the week till then; bloody still not used to the eight o'clocks ay. spent the night talking to justine cause she was in a procrastinating mood and fell asleep sometime around 3.

hmmm, the weekend was a pretty choice one, well from what i remember anyway. we had a good lunch over at the pinelands sushi place, the three of us boys ate 4 times more than the girls (it was great sushi ay) and phuccie couldn't man up to eatting his green tea icecream. we went window shopping at garbo until we decided to meet up with a few of d block at southbank to watch chuck and larry. awesome movie ay; well if your into gay homo jokes, u'll know what i mean when you see it. hahahahaha.

that's probably about all i really remember clearly of that saturday. we headed home to get dressed for a meet up with some of my security workmates out at the mustang. i pretty much don't remember much between a game of pingpong, a few drinks and finding myself in my lounge room in my underwear...hahahaha; well not really ay, i find it pretty scary ay...

woke up throwing up bucket fulls of black stuff and blood with my tonsil inflammed the size of one of those really huge marbels. hmmm, i'm really not keen on doing that again ay.

the doctor prescribed me some cough medicine, roids and new antibiotics (the last ones i had for the flu gave me the runs).... hahaha, he reckons my immune system was down from the flu and the drinking pretty much knocked me with some virus it wouldn't of cough if i was all strong and healthy. i feel happy taking roids, it makes me get an itch under my skin and gives me euphoric dreams; bloody awesome side effects; except for the itching.

can't wait to sleep, hope i don't see rabbits, butterflies and teddy bears like i did yesternight. good night people!

yeah man, i reckon i'm well enough to say i'm officially unsick; although my amoxillin doses are still continuing and i've been getting the runs a few hours later due to the side effects, i've been able to suppress my coughing to approximately once every 5 or so minutes. did my first gym session since last thursday and it wasn't too shabby; was able to finish a few sets of chest and triceps but it's been no where near the intensity i was hoping to achieve, none the less, it's still good to do some gym than none. i get to work this saturday which is a bummer but i guess it's not too bad, a few more hours of work i guess gives me a couple of bucks to add to savings. can't wait till my races shift for next wednesday. while you youngns are all out having fun at the ekka, i'll be at the races earning double time for standing around looking after drunk people. hahahaha

yeah....hahah martin just called and he wants to play some dota. i'll blog some more later tonight. ciao

yeah im bloody sick and tired of this ay. hate the flu. i reckon that last weight session i had 3 days ago completely wrecked any of my immune system i had left defending this bloody virus. it hasn't been all that bad though; hanging around at home, in bed or on the couch in front of the tv and mum believing that the only way i'm gonna get better is to feed me as much as i can, i reckon it's pretty cool to be sick once in a while (i get my abs exercises done as well with my constant contractions due to chest coughs.)

its not all glitz and glamour though. well i mean your mind starts to wonder and you sort of reflect and think about pretty much everything; well you can't really do too much else (i'm not one of those game playing sicks). some good sick bed ridden reflecting does the mind wonders but i think i'm at the stage where it's doing more harm than good (i've probably passed that staged 2 days ago). far, i hate it when i'm sick. weights, exercise or some good old afternoon staring at the grass in the paddock usually does me good when my minds been wondering too much or when life needs to be slowed down a little but ya know to stop the fat, it must be pretty bad. hahaha

actually, up until now in my post, i've pretty much felt alot better. blogging helped me rethink what i had to blog and i don't think it really is worth typing anymore, it would just be bitching about stuff now that i think about it. hahaha, i guess all i could say is life could be better, but it's good at the moment so i won't complain too much. take it easy people, thanks for hearing me out.

P.S. oi Thuy, i re-read that post, didn't mean it like u thought, hahaha, you think too much sorry if it sounded offensive. fat

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after that little fishing trip, i rested hard till work began early on the wednesday for origin. the blues won *yay*, the maroons won the series *boo* but all in all, the night out at the vic wasn't too bad. thursday was folllowed by a good lazy day out at the muddy where myself and the super played pool and sudoku all night, it was a good bludgy night where good behavioured people sat and stared at pokies machines. friday was cruisy, like every other friday cause i was at the vale. i love the vale! had a cruisy ass 10 o'clock start saturday morning which dragged on untill 6 at the races. the corinda on the other hand was a different story with my super and i wrestling and getting a few guys arrested. bloody drunk people. just why i don't understand?

took the 15minute trip over to the alex from the corinda and evicted a few there. nothing really special ay, the week was pretty much one full of work so didn't really see much of the guys. my little sisters b'day was on the monday, got her a wii and a phone plan which i hope she likes. we chilled out on the tuesday with a few of the boys, about 20 of so ex-state highs which was a good turn up. played a little ball which was awesome and did the old school kfc dinner afterwards. brought back alot of the good times ay; nothing much has changed.

and yeah, it's been a pretty boring holidays so far actually. i've spent a few days just fixing things around the house and cleaning up but that's about it. sent a few of the otago boys e-mails so that was pretty choice, actually trying to keep in contact ay. anyways, i'll try and post later on in the week, i'm stuffed now, just came back from quangies playing a little bit of poker and wii. wii gets ya tired i tell ya. take care people.

yeah, that nrb stuffed me ay. i reckon the marker of the exam is going to shred up my paper after he looks at it. ohh well, it's holidays!

yeah, did the usual dota for a few hours after it cause was way too stuffed to do anything else, had a few late nights before hand to study for the exams. it was good to catch up with a few. we went fishing down over at charlies place for a bit (it was more like driving around than fishing). didn't catch a single thing so jumped over to west end for a bit which was stupid as. the temperature was probably around a low 4 or so and windy as ay. phuccie caught an eel and i caught a stupid catfish. duration stayed = about 8 minutes.

we headed down to thuys at the coast on the wednesday which was pretty fun. didn't do too much other than have a good feed (wasn't too good cause we were all still hungry as), and ross and i played on the computer while the others drank a few and played monopoly and pictionary.
we went home early on the thursday morning and i think i just slepted all day.

that thursday i think i just slept but can't be too sure. had work on the thursday which was heaps fun cause pete and i got to sit around playing sudoku, watching tv and shooting pool all night. it was mean as cause they kept us in till 2:30 as well, good pay for doing not much. hahaha

friday was a pretty fun day. i think we saw janice today, and went to play a bit of bowling with her and he little sis. ross and kerwin were there. (i hate it when i gotta try to remember stuff). had work and it was terrible. well it was good but we had terrible trouble. ripping people apart, grabbing shirts, taking hits; it wasn't too bad, just alot of dickhead drunk dudes who wouldn't leave. 16 evictions i think, 2 physical which isn't nearly that bad. had a good feed afterwards, bought myself a good tub of protein, synergy 5 it's called. gives u an 84% count of protein and probably about 3 percent carbs which is pretty sick for me. its cheap cause it's not a really well known brand but who gives a crap, it's good enough for me.

saturday i worked at sunbar and it was crappy. boring, crappy crowd, crappy venue, not really but it just wasn't my type of place ay. im not too much of a valley or city guy ay, just can't work those places ay.

we went fishing sunday night and brought back a feast. between phuccie, paullie and i we brought home eskys and buckets of 20 bream all up, measuring probably at around the half kilo to 700 grams each. it was sick as. kerwin and ricky didn't have too much luck although kerwin did bring up an undersized mangrove jack. ricky never got to reel in his line with a sinker and hook still attached.

it was stink but i guess a relief as well getting a phone call from the office saying my shift at the koala tavern was cancelled. stink because if they had called me 10 minutes earilier i wouldn't of been half way there and a relief because i didn't really want to work so early; 7 is heaps early hmmmmk. hahaha, so i've been freezing my arse off at home, trying to read through a few of my last exams notes while watching the craziest police chases on tv. an hour or so of doing nothing because there's not enough time to do anything and too long of a time to sit around waiting serves good relaxation time to just chill ay. ohh well, i've gotta go and get changed again, hope this weather stops heaps of people from going out, if it were to me i'ld rather be at home in my cosy warm bed sleeping. fat

i hate being lactose intolerant. growing up i always thought getting runs after eatting a pizza was due to it's preparation. a long period without milk, cheeses and yoghurt followed by a one good dose one morning left me clenching to keep it off of the floor. damn, an easy 30 or so grams of protein per couple of glasses doesn't help either. hahaha, stuff it, i'm gonna go and buy that soy milk from the super tomorrow, i hear it increases your oestrogen levels, gives you tities; hahaha we'll see how it goes. fat

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this place has changed ever since the last time i was on to update. blogger has introduced so many nifty things we can add to our blogs; the holidays will give me time to explore all of them. officially not really on holidays yet ay but finals give me a bit more time to chill out and stuff, reflect. hahaha

if it weren't for karan i probably wouldn't of got back on this thing to update (yeah sorry man, i know it was pretty long ago since when you told me) but got so much to talk about and so little people who have time to hear my random ramblings; haha i wouldn't blame them, these days we seem to be able to talk for ever.

it's been over 4 months ay and heaps has happened. it's been a great year so far i reckon. life could be a little less systematic though as it just seems as though if i'm not waiting for the week to end for work, i'm waiting for it to begin for uni.

uni, gym and work seem to work pretty good for me every week. monday starts with the 8 o'clock and the state library is prolly where i'll be after that. by about 3, i'll probably meet up with some of the uq guys in the city and go for a good feed and a few hours of dota. yeah, i still haven't been able to quit dota but it's the only thing other than gym which lets me relax, pretty lame ay. hahahaha.

tuesdays will pretty much be the only day i'm at home after uni cause nothing really happens. the guys rock up to my life sciences lecture in the arvo and we stuff around before going to the library to study (talk) and sit around southbank afterwards when it closes. but yeah, im usually able to catch up on some prac readings and tute preparations when i get back home.

wednesday - thurdays the week of work start and i'm out over at the muddy farmer for the 9 to whenever they decide to close. my super out there is a choice bloke, i love working there. the only place i've worked where i can actually sit on my arse and watch people (usually by then we've only 5 people in the whole place and no-one really cares anyway). love the wednesdays there cause there's karaoke on and time flies by real quick (karaoke finishes at 1 so you know u've only got an hour left). thursdays aren't too good cause music stops at 10:30, after this, ur just sitting around till people leave from the pokies.

friday is probably my favourite day of the week cause it's calamvale day. i don't know why i'm so passionate about working on the friday. its just heaps and heaps of fun ay; a venue i've gotten real close to due to great staff, workmates and just the atmosphere, there's always something thats going on and u just feel it. Saturdays are the same but i've been thrown out to heaps of different places. Looked after eskimo joes concert at the alex one night which was one cruisy ass night (got to stand at the backgate and look after gear and the crew from screaming crazy fans which did not happen).

Sunday we get to sleep till afternoon and exhausted from the whole week, i get to do absolutely nothing cause i reckon i deserve it (bloody lazy arse). stay at home usually and prepare for the whole week as it starts all over again.

gym has been real good ay but could be heaps better. ricky showed us a real mean suppliments shop over at carindale. yeah, i've gone pretty hard with it ay. taking l-carnitine (not fully yet though, im saving it for my cut and gotta research into it a bit more), creatine, glutamine, protein. the creatine i've got atm is sick as. no-explode it's called and it's insano crap ay. really does give you a kick. i've been loggin heaps of stuff, actually trying to do it properly. but yeah, have cut down on all the junk and have watched my diet; pretty much as little carbs as possible. but yeah, it's been sick learning about just how the body reacts to what you give it and do with it. fitness first stopped being my second home, i've been more acoustomed to working at home just because of the convenience; i miss having bondy there to push and spot me though.

but yeah, uni has been alright. haha, that's probably all i can say about it. kerwin and the guys were right when they explained qut for me. "it's just a place to go for lectures and pracs and then you piss off home". just wasn't like that down in otago ay boys, well...sorta, i guess it just didn't seem like it cause everything else was close to uni.

jackpot noodles is the brisbane sampan, the state library is the brisbane link and i swear the weather at the moment seems to be much like dunedin. it's a real noticable cold, probably not as cold as down south but it's pretty freezing.

i went for a pee and came back and i don't seem to remember anything about what i was supposed to blog. ohh well, maybe save it for next time ay. i'll be on more regularly (i say that everytime) now that the holidays are near. take care and wear a beanie. fat

past couple of weeks have been mean hard. uni has been pretty cool. completed first chemistry test for the year and it wasn't too bad. seemed pretty good for the amount of study i did. gotta do a bit more to get into the course i want to tho. don't have an 8 o'clock tomrorow so it's pretty mean hard. have heaps and heaps of time to study for my tuesday lsb exam and nrb exam on thursday.

had our last ray jays dinner saturday and it's gonna be hard to never come back to that place. so many memories ay. anyways, yeah, just felt like posting. i'll try and get some photos from ray jays posted asap.

take it easy people.

farout, yeah, it's been a long time since i posted something and i guess i've got a few minutes before work so why not ay. hahaha, uni's been pretty mean hard. it's good to get back into study mode again, and have a bit more routine in daily life. my time table isn't something too sweet but its good to get up at 8 in the morning and keep active till 6 in the arvo. hahaha, ohh well.

it feels good ay. it's great being at qut. it's a different great from being down at dunedin...it's just different. but its goood ay. great making new friends, great learning new things and just great being a uni student again.

i'm already using what i've learnt in the past few weeks of uni; especially environmental science, beginning to use less and less of my car to save our global warming issue. (not really...just sick of paying for fuel). but it's good ay, catching the bus is pretty fun. it's better now than in high school, just, have time to reflect on everything happening in the day. it's good alone time ay.

hahaha, anyways, i feel more satisfied now now that i posted something. my to-do list is still there in the back of my mind, i'm just trying to fix a few of the major ones up atm. a few tweaks here and there, add in a bit of time and hopefully i'll be able to cross a few off by the end of the year. take it easy people.

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